So wow, have I been a busy bee!
(which is kinda why I haven't posted anything in a while)
I have felt so overwhelmed with homework and my TE100 class and now work. I don't know how I find the time, energy or strength to do it all. That's because it's not from my strength.
So my TE100 class is required before entering into the education program. It requires 80 hours of field observation in a classroom and you also have to so field observation reports every 8-12 hours. Yeah, it's a a lot of work. So my once free Fridays are now filled with observing an elementary classroom. Don't get me wrong, I love observing the class. Kids are wonderful to be around. It's just a lot of work and time. And I used to do homework on Fridays. Now I do my homework on Saturdays, and Sundays because I can't seem to complete it all in one day.
I also just started working at a daycare. I am super excited to work there, but I wasn't sure about it at first (it's kinda a long story, perhaps I will explain in a later blog). Now I am excited and it is again great to work with kids. They are so awesome. Any who, now work takes up more time.
I also feel like I always have homework due, and my schedule makes it so I am unable to do any homework during the week, except for on Monday and a little bit on Tuesday. So I have to do it all on the weekend. This leaves very little room for fun.
Now it probably seems like I have no life and I am about to break into a million little pieces because I am stressed and have no time for anything, well I did feel that way a week or two ago. I felt so defeated and stressed and sad, and just plain awful. I wanted to cry all the time and not do anything because I was so sick of homework. I just had this defeated feeling and I didn't know what to do. Well that's because all I needed to do was nothing, nothing but let go and let God.
I needed to accept that I could not handle this on my own and let God take control. He is the one who knows what is best for me. I need to let him handle my schedule and time management. Leaning on his strength to get me through each day. This is a daily battle for me, especially with this crazy schedule of mine. I haven't been this busy since swim season in high school. I know God will take care of me, but only if I allow him to.
I have been reading the book Multiply by Francis Chan and I read something in there that made me go wow. " Paul reminds us that the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus Christ from the dead is working through us (Eph. 1:15-23; Rom. 8:11)" I have read those verses multiple times, but I did not notice what it was saying. Yes I know the Holy Spirit lives in side of us, but I did not connect that it is the same spirit that raised Jesus Christ from the dead. Woah. Woah, woah, woah. When I let that sink into my brain and heart I feel unstoppable. The Spirit that raised Christ from the dead is living inside of me! I can do anything! When I focus on letting God be where my strength comes from I have no fear and no need to stress, because I know and trust that He can do anything. And that He works for my good.
Romans 8:28 (I really like this verse)
Well that is it for today folks. I hope that you have a wonderful week and that God blesses you. Remember that Jesus loves you! 1 John 3:16
