Thursday, March 3, 2016

Something has been on my mind lately...

I know this will anger people. You can almost always guarantee that what you say will anger someone nowadays. However, it is something I would like to get off my chest.
 I don’t really understand how someone can say that an embryo is not a child. Then what is it? By definition it is an unborn offspring in the process of development. It is a child that is not fully developed yet. And an infant is a child that is in it’s early stages of development. What is the difference between an unborn child and a born child? Is it because one is simply not been born yet? And that may be enough for some, but it is not enough for me. I can see how it develops, how it grows. A mother can feel a baby kicking and turning. A mother can see her child first begin to walk. She sees and feels him/her grow. They are both growing. They are both living. They are both precious. Important. It can be easy to think that an embryo is less important when it is a medical term. When it is thought of as only a situation. And for some it may seem that because it is not fully developed that maybe it is less important, but I have a question: What if the born child has a disability? Is that child any less important than a typical child? Of course not. They are equally important, equally precious. Loved. And is the infant still in the early stages of development less important than the three year old, who is more developed? No. They are equally important, equally precious. Loved. 
This also might not be of concern to some people. The argument might be that it is the mother’s body, and it is her right. I guess in a sense this might be true. It might be true that a mother has a right to have sex and then get pregnant then decide to abort the baby. And there are always extreme situations and emotions that go into this. And I am not trying to put down anyone who struggles with this. It is not something I could imagine having to decide. A woman can be feeling a lot of different emotions and may have a lot of different reasons for doing it. I want to state that I don't think any less of them and I accept and love them. I am not here to judge. I simply feel that abortion is a serious thing, something that will end a life.  My goal here is to state that the situation or decision is real  and important.
How often do we think about what actually happens in an abortion? I didn’t know, so I looked into it. And honestly, I cried. I watched as a unborn child was ripped apart as it was sucked into a tube. And then a unborn child a little later in development was torn part by part with a clamp out of the uterus. It was heart breaking. Sometimes perspective makes all the difference. And I guess that is what it comes down to: how someone looks at abortion and what an embryo is.
I might feel this way because children are so important to me. I feel it is my calling to work with children, to help them to learn and grow. It is a joy to see a child finally be able to tie his shoes and be so proud of himself. I care deeply for all children. And I felt that as a society that maybe we would too. But I cannot forget the women in the situation. You are loved. Your child is loved. Whether you had the child or not. I love you and God loves you. I still believe that it is wrong. This means that I will never allow myself to go through an abortion and I will not support it. However, I will continue to do as God has asked of me and love his children. All of them. The ones who are fully grown and the the ones still developing. My prayer is that all will seek God and find him. 

More Information on abortion can be found at: 
http://www.abortionprocedures.com/ 
https://www.plannedparenthood.org/learn/abortion 

Monday, September 30, 2013

Busy, busy, busy

So wow, have I been a busy bee!
(which is kinda why I haven't posted anything in a while)

I have felt so overwhelmed with homework and my TE100 class and now work. I don't know how I find the time, energy or strength to do it all. That's because it's not from my strength.

So my TE100 class is required before entering into the education program. It requires 80 hours of field observation in a classroom and you also have to so field observation reports every 8-12 hours. Yeah, it's a a lot of work. So my once free Fridays are now filled with observing an elementary classroom. Don't get me wrong, I love observing the class. Kids are wonderful to be around. It's just a lot of work and time. And I used to do homework on Fridays. Now I do my homework on Saturdays, and Sundays because I can't seem to complete it all in one day.

I also just started working at a daycare. I am super excited to work there, but I wasn't sure about it at first (it's kinda a long story, perhaps I will explain in a later blog). Now I am excited and it is again great to work with kids. They are so awesome. Any who, now work takes up more time.

I also feel like I always have homework due, and my schedule makes it so I am unable to do any homework during the week, except for on Monday and a little bit on Tuesday. So I have to do it all on the weekend. This leaves very little room for fun.

Now it probably seems like I have no life and I am about to break into a million little pieces because I am stressed and have no time for anything, well I did feel that way a week or two ago. I felt so defeated and stressed and sad, and just plain awful. I wanted to cry all the time and not do anything because I was so sick of homework. I just had this defeated feeling and I didn't know what to do. Well that's because all I needed to do was nothing, nothing but let go and let God.

I needed to accept that I could not handle this on my own and let God take control. He is the one who knows what is best for me. I need to let him handle my schedule and time management. Leaning on his strength to get me through each day. This is a daily battle for me, especially with this crazy schedule of mine. I haven't been this busy since swim season in high school. I know God will take care of me, but only if I allow him to.

 I have been reading the book Multiply by Francis Chan and I read something in there that made me go wow. " Paul reminds us that the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus Christ from the dead is working through us (Eph. 1:15-23; Rom. 8:11)" I have read those verses multiple times, but I did not notice what it was saying. Yes I know the Holy Spirit lives in side of us, but I did not connect that it is the same spirit that raised Jesus Christ from the dead. Woah. Woah, woah, woah. When I let that sink into my brain and heart I feel unstoppable. The Spirit that raised Christ from the dead is living inside of me! I can do anything! When I focus on letting God be where my strength comes from I have no fear and no need to stress, because I know and trust that He can do anything. And that He works for my good.

Romans 8:28 (I really like this verse)

Well that is it for today folks. I hope that you have a wonderful week and that God blesses you. Remember that Jesus loves you! 1 John 3:16

Sunday, August 25, 2013

New Adventures

Here I am a third year at college ready to embark on a new adventure! I am actually really excited for this year. There seems like there will be a lot of fun happening and a lot of growing.

I am sad to leave the daycare I was working at. I really enjoyed working with the kids there and the women that worked there are wonderful. They made me feel so special on my last day. They brought in cookies for me with a card and a gift card to Target. I will definitely miss working there.

But I know God has a beautiful plan for my life and I am excited to see what this next chapter will bring!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Forgetful Miss Kayla

So today I was very, very forgetful. I forgot to take out the trash when I left work, so I had to turn around to go take it out. The I realized that I put thee wrong time in, so then I had to set a reminder to change it. Then I left my water bottle at work. I also forgot to bring my water bottle to work yesterday. The point of this is that I have realized that I have been very forgetful lately. I think it might be stress or excitement or a combo.

You see next week I move into my dorm and school starts, that also means that next week is my last week of work. And I really like where I work. Also it means that I need to pack all my stuff and figure out what I am bringing to college and what is going into storage. And I also need to find a job when I get to school.

But it's not all stress and to do list's. I am very excited to see all my lovely friends when I return and get four classes closer to my degree.  It's just  a lot to take in one go. I think I am the type of person who needs lots of breaks and a schedule that gives time for moments of relaxation. I like having a busy schedule but if it is too full then I will be way to stressed. I feel I might be approaching that point. I am hoping it will calm down when I get to school, but that's not likely. Gah. school stuff can be stressful.

Does anyone else feel this way?

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Hey I made a list or two!

So I made a list of things I don't like about living by myself. Here it is:

Downfalls of being a young women living alone:

-Easy to get bored when alone.
- No one to play board games or card games with when you do get bored.
-You have to cook when you get hungry, even though you don't feel like it because there is no one else there to do it.
- When you do feel like cooking there is no one to cook with to make it fun.
-Also no one to bake with.
-There is no one there to try the new recipe you found.
-When you cook too much food there is no one there to help you finish it.
-No one is there to kill the scary bugs that appear in the bathroom and you have no idea what it is, but it is scary and you don't want to be near it.
-No one is there to trace pictures on your back or rub your back when you can't fall asleep.
- No one there to comfort you when you have a nightmare.
-Every noise makes your mind wander to the worst possible scenario (burglars, ghosts, scary people) (which can also make it difficult to sleep).
-No one there to ask if the outfit you are wearing looks good enough for the public eye.
- No one to come home to tell about your day, or hear about theirs.
-No one there to make sure you don't sleep in too late.
-No one there to make sure you get to work on time.
-No one there to immediately express each crazy thought that appears in your head.
-No one there to look at you like you are crazy after you express that crazy thought you were thinking.
-No one to build a fort with (because building a fort is no fun when done alone).
-No one to have a pillow fight with.
-No one to annoy by throwing pieces of paper at them.
-No random dance parties (it's not a party when it's just you).


So there may seem to be a lot of downfalls about living by oneself, and maybe more that I didn't list, but there are also some upsides...

Upsides of being a young women living alone:

-You can play music as loud as you like.
-You can play whatever music you like and no one can complain.
-You can say crazy things and no one is there to look at you like you are crazy.
-You don't have to worry too much about how messy the apartment looks because it's just you.
-You can eat ice cream right out of the carton because you don't have to share.
-All the food is yours.
-You can sing as loud as you like with out worrying who is listening and judging your skills.
-You have your own schedule and no one is there to mess it up.
-So much time to read.
-Dinner is whatever you want, no need to worry about other peoples taste buds.
-You can take extremely long showers if you like, no one else is waiting to use the bathroom.

And even though some upsides are really nice, there are still a lot of downsides. And even if I could think of more upsides I would still prefer to have a least one roommate of some sort. I think I miss living with my family or having a roommate like I do at school. It makes me more excited for the Fall semester to start or it makes want to move to Florida to be with my family all the time...The Fall semester is closer.

Changes

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while, life can get pretty busy and pretty crazy really fast. But things have calmed down a bit, still busy, but not too busy not to blog. Woooo!

Something I have noticed is all the changes in my life. And not all the changes are directly changes in my life specifically, but in the lives of those around me. For example my sister graduated high school in May and will be on her way to college in August. Crazy! She is so grown up now! Also my best friend got married a couple weeks ago, which is even crazier. I have known this girl since the first grade and now she will have a different last name. It is sill hard to wrap my head around sometimes.

And all these changes got me thinking about my life and if there has been any big changes in my life lately. I mean I do consider these changes to be a part of my life because it involves the people I love and care about, but I was trying to consider changes that affect specifically me. And here is what I came up with:

-I have been dating my boyfriend for six months last Thursday. (that's half a year! It may not seem like a big deal but it is. It really is. )
-I have been going into my third year of college
-I have had a job at a daycare for a couple months now
-I have a car now
-I got a hair cut

And that's all I could come up with for the time being. And they all seem to be changes that happened a while ago or have been happening. I think it made me realize that changes happen all the time, and there can be lots of little changes that we don't notice. Did you notice that I only put down tangible changes? Or changes that are dealing with situation? My relationship with God is growing everyday and the way I view the world changes with it. These are things that are so easy to miss if we don't pay attention. I'm not saying it's bad if we do and I'm not saying the changes listed are bad, in fact I would say they are positive.I just think it can be easy for someone to look at an others life and just assume they are going no where because they don't have all the same stuff that person has. That's what I almost did.

It's important to look inside oneself and consider the growth that has occurred, not dealing with situation. How mature you are then you were last  year, how much more you know about God, how much your faith has grown, how much knowledge you have gained. Changes are not only physical and it's important to remember that. Focus on growing in the areas that matter most, instead of wondering why this person life seems to be moving faster than yours. I know I need to refocus myself.

Another thing all these changes made me realize is how fast life can move, especially when your not paying attention. So we have to make sure to make the most out of what God has given us today and enjoy it. Making sure not to focus to much on what's going to happen in the future, enjoying each second we have, and not worrying too much about what the future will be. If all you do is worry, you will miss out on all the joys of today. We can trust God will lead us and that he will give us the strength we need to deal with things as they come along. As long as God is leading us, we have nothing to fear.

John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

The sniffles

I might be a little sick, which is no fun.
On Sunday I woke up with a stuffy/runny nose and my throat is a tiny bit sore. It might have been one of the kids at the daycare who got me sick, since there were three kids out from sickness last Friday. Or it could have been pond water, since I went swimming on Saturday. But whatever it is or however I got it, I got it. And now I have to carry tissues with me where ever I go. Boo being sick.

I think I take for granted my health. I think it's something that is easy to do, especially if you are like me and don't get sick very often. I would just like to say that I am very thankful for my health and the ability to breath through my nose (that is very difficult for me to do right now). I know there are probably many things that I take for granted and should remember to be thankful for. Being sick just reminded me of this.

There is something I have noticed when reading my Bible; How often the Bible says to be thankful. There are times where it is just on the end, and it might seem like it has nothing to do with the rest of the verse, but it does. For example:

Colossians 3:15
" Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful."

Being thankful is extremely important. And I think I need to remember to be thankful, for everything. I should be thankful, not because I have something that someone else lacks, but because it is a blessing from God. And something may be a blessing in disguise, like me being sick. It was a reminder to be thankful. And I am thankful for it, which might seem strange. But God can use anything and make work for our good (Romans 8:28). So he took this sickness and used it to be a reminder for me. God is pretty neat like that, always speaking to me through the most unique and interesting ways.

Now I will leave you with this verse:
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."